Mind watching

and that is the fact that I’m growing up.  I’m going to be a freaking senior and I dont like

Thats my shit. Girl from ipanema ftw

i mean really, the fact that you’re pushing this onto me makes me not want to do anything.  Oh yeah call merryl a bum. Thats freaking cool, insult and make me not want to do it even more.  All this pushing is making me push back because you’re too stuck up being a pretentious bitch.  Yeah your intention is good but that doesn’t make whatever the fuck you are doing right now fucking right.  Christ, are you really that bull headed? can you get more stupid?  I want my card and chocolate back i want a refund for your stupid gift. Oh and you want to know why i dont talk to you?  You mentioned it yourself.  YOU CANT TALK FOR SHIT.  I dont know if you haven’t noticed but no one likes you.  Its because of all this fucking crap you give us.  You are a terrible actor and people catch on faster than you think.  Im being completely honest and i’ve continually made it a point for myself to complete in the future.  Im not going to take care of you or plan your funeral out.  Everyday i make it my plan and Im going to stick by it.  Let merryl do the work, cuz im not going to give any fucks.  I ran out way too long ago

That one person made the day worthwhile =) i may not have been able to hang out later in tge day, but it was satisfying enough to talk

When we’d talk and hang. I have been such a socialite lately… Just got me thinking about the times we had. Have to admit some great memories

It smells like death and it feels like theres just way too much burden here.  I really cant take it

my lola has too!  Plus the fire detector that needed a new battery doesnt need one anymore… and no one changed the battery…

oh mah gash its wierd, singing has never been so addicting

fockin kroice i changed my password cuz i was sending out spam for some reason and now my new password isn’t working

screw the flu mang

Today i totally forgot i had prayer assigned and i said to myself that I would try to do spoken word for the reflection part.  Thank God i had a plan already set up.  I decided that i was going to use the story of when i got lost in West Seattle and how i didnt want to ask for directions.  The fricken problem was what i was going to rhyme with, but then words just came to me, they just started to flow into my head and they just worked out. I started it halfway into 2nd period and got it done by around the end of jap class.  The final problem was if anyone would like it.  When i got up there i did my story and then got to the spoken word part.  Im pretty sure that over half the people there didn’t know what in the hell spoken word was, but like how the words flowed into my mind, the flood gates released, but a steady and resounding stream came from my mouth.  People were surprised and then after a bit they decided to go with black gospel “mmm”s.  Of course they’d go with that, only at o’dea.  Then when i finished, people were clapping.  It was a surprise.  I have never performed in front of people before, but it felt great.  It gave me a sort of freedom i’ve never felt before, and a confidence boost like no other.  I dunno i’m just blowing this out of proportion but i am dam happy with myself and all i can do is thank God

i think we established this that they dont fucking do anything but blah at you.  they have shit on me like the shit i do.  they cant take your fucking shit away.  of course i would go for the option that would be hurt less. like hell i like to blame shit on other things.  when im in seattle i fess up to shit that stupid ass people get on.  the main factor is that they cant do shit to you, but they can to me.  yeah im being selfish but maybe i like to be selfish sometimes.  not like everyone else doesnt have those fucking times.  yeah right come at me.